Have mercy on me, O God, according to your steadfast love; according to your abundant mercy blot out my transgressions. Wash me thoroughly from my iniquity, and cleanse me from my sin! Ps. 51:1-2
Dear heavenly Father, this Scripture is both so encouraging and quite convicting. Few things are as attractive as genuine humility. It’s like a five-course meal in a five-star bistro. When someone offers a contrite heart, takes responsibility for their failure, acknowledges the impact of their choice, asks to be forgiven, and seeks to make restitution—there’s no restaurant on the face of the earth that can offer up more exquisite cuisine.
Yet, Lord, when it comes to asking for forgiveness, too often I’m like short-order cook in a fast-food drive through. I hear myself saying things like, “I’m sorry, but you took what I said all wrong.” “I’m sorry, but if you weren’t so sensitive, it wouldn’t be that big of a deal.” “I’m sorry, but if you understood what my last couple of weeks were like, you’d cut me some slack.” “I’m sorry, but if you know what kind of home I grew up in you’d realize I didn’t get the ‘relationship chip.'”
Father, as I pore over your Word, I don’t see a single place where the phrase “I’m sorry, but” is celebrated as the vocabulary of genuine humility. Have mercy on me, indeed. May your unfailing love and great compassion free me from all “I’m sorry, buts.”
Instead, I want to offer many more of these: “Will you forgive me?” “I can see I really hurt you. What do you need from me?” “Tell me more about how my words and actions made you feel.” “I’m genuinely sorry and I offer no qualifiers, just a sincere apology.”
Father, you have had mercy on me according to your steadfast love. I know that in Jesus, all of my sins have already been blotted out and forgiven—past, present, and future; sins of thought, word, and deed. May this glorious gospel make it increasingly easier for me to humble myself and ask forgiveness of those I fail and hurt, and difficult to remain proud and unbroken. So very Amen I pray, in Jesus’ merciful and mighty name.
