"Whoever battles with monsters had better see that it does not turn him into a monster. And if you gaze long into an abyss, the abyss will gaze back into you."
Friedrich Nietzsche, Beyond Good and Evil, #146.
Playing the role of standard-bearer is filled with temptation. It is difficult for fallible people to serve as the watchdogs of others. We can become what we critique in others, without noticing the irony of it. Indeed, we might secretly fear we are seeing in them what we most loathe about ourselves. Without moment-by-moment self-awareness before Christ, we might crucify those we condemn in our own blood ritual of self-atonement -- the opposite of the cross, for the sake of the cross.
Search me, O God, and know my heart!
Try me and know my thoughts!
And see if there be any grievous way in me,
and lead me in the way everlasting! Psalm 139:23-24